I need to do something, I need something to change. I have all these dreams of things and I never do anything to bring them true. I once heard that dreams can’t come true, because then they would no longer be a dream, so maybe I should take the hint, or maybe I should stop calling them dreams and start calling them goals. That could be a good first step.

Anyway though, I want to ride my bike more, and swim better, and jog more, and maybe enter a bike race or triathlon, but I never do. I want to move out, and get a cool car, but I don’t even have a job to pay for what I have now. I want to read more, and be able to say I have read all the classics, and talk of great philosophers, and have a grand library of my own, but I seldom even read the books I have.

I want all these things, but I never act on them. I don’t even know why. Shouldn’t wanting something make you strive for it? Maybe I don’t really want them, just idly dream about them, and as dreams they can never become true. I don’t know.

I guess this isn’t a great time, because I am doing stuff, unlike over the last winter when I just sat and didn’t do much of anything for 6 months. Still though, I could, nay, should be doing something more.

Oh well, I just felt like a good off the wall rant, rather than the usual boring update.

Comments welcome.

nick

You’re no special agent, you’re just some jerk that hates my mustache!